Saturday, February 26, 2011

Just a Thought

Ok.  So, here I go.  I have been thinking about writing one of these for some time, but did not know where to begin. So, where to begin?  With just a thought.  What is happiness?
I have been married for almost 11 years now.  In that time, we have lived in 9 different houses and moved a total of 11 times.  Oh yeah- and we are not even in the military!  After being married for about 2 years, I phoned my husband at work and was informed that he no longer worked there- to my complete surprise.  After calming down, and locating him, he informed me that he would now be a builder!  OK, roll with it.  He was already in the process of buiding our soon to be new house- on weekends and nights, so sure, let's do it full time and make it a living.  4 new houses and 11 years of marriage down, and now he is changing careers yet again.  Now it is to be a restaurant owner- OK roll with!  Whatever my husband touches, seems to work out for him.  I like to believe it is because he has a supporting wife behind him every step of the way.  That combined with his enourmous pride and great work ethic, he can make something out of anything. Each one of our moves, was for a "better" life for ourselves and our kids.  We moved from our first house to a "better" town.  The next house to a better neighborhood (by the way, it was back to our original hometown).  The next house was the "dream home", but we never saw that dream to be a reality, since we sold it before moving into it and relocated to a different state- for a "better life for ourselves and our children".  This most recent house is another "dream house", but again, watch out what you dream for- you might just get it.
Well, here we go again.  We have put the house on the market again- uh oh!  More moving boxes and missing china.  This time, however, it is my idea- I must have officially lost my mind.  My husband has built such a beautiful house and an enormous house, that I just can't seem to stay in it.  It is constant upkeep, but oh how beautiful it is when it is kept up!  There is an acre of property which needs mowing, raking, weeding, blah blah blah.  My husband is working over 12 hours a day, and the house is simply too large to be in alone with only 2 small children and a dog who can size up with a race horse.  It is lonely in this house and in a neighborhood where the neighbors are too far away to talk with "over the fence".  I want a neighborhood where I will see my neighbors and where my small children can play with other small children.  Also, I want a house that doesn't take all of my effort and free time to keep clean.  So I ask you.... will I be happy in a smaller house?  If not, we can always move again!  Just a thought!